Monday, February 25, 2013


I only have two words for you.. ~I'M DONE~
After everything I've done for you,
Every chance that I gave you yet,
You still break my heart but it's over.

Finally, I've realized I don't deserve this,
And honestly, you don't deserve me.
Yeah, I still love you and probably will for a long time.
But I can't stay here anymore, it hurts too much I guess this is..

I guess I'm tired of being the least thing on your mind.
I should have known from the start, you'd go and break my heart.
You took my heart and threw it away as if it was NOTHING.
To me.. you're my everything but to you I'm just another meantime girl.

You hurt me more than I deserve,
How can you be so cruel?
I love you more than you deserve,
Why am I such a fool?

Little did I know you were just another dead end road,
Made with pretty lies and broken dreams.
Now, I believe it when people say, LOVE IS BLIND..
Coz I must have been blind to love a person like YOU.

It finally hit me that you didn't care,
When you walked away and never looked back.
Maybe if I had just looked away that first night you came towards me,
Everything would be different, my heart wouldn't be breaking right now.

I wanna do exactly what you did to me,
lead you on, make you fall for me, then just let go.
Suddenly, I'm hating myself for everything I've ever felt for you.

Sometimes, I wish I could go back and erase the day I met you.
But then, I will never regret loving you only believing you..LOVE ME TOO.
I made a mistake thinking you were my world,
You won't get away with this..You messed with the wrong girl.

Slandering my own name just for your own gain.
Dream on honey, I'm gonna make you feel the PAIN.
Thank you for ripping my heart out, stomping on it.
And breaking it in half, now I know how much you care.

Watching you walked out of my life doesn't make me bitter about love,
But rather makes me realize that, if I wanted so much to be
With the wrong person, how great it will be,
When the right one comes along.

There is no medication for this illnes,
No known cure rather than TIME.
Maybe someday I'll be back my heart.
Maybe someday, I'll get back my pride.

Maybe somewhere down the road,
I'll forget to remember you.
One day, you will seek love and be "SORRY"
That you threw mine away.

And one day, you'll realize you could have been with me.
I hope someday, you'll realize what a fool you were to let someone like me.
Slip from your grip and that you'll see that the one you've been looking for,
Was the one who SET YOU FREE.

One day, I will be able to look you in the eye without feeling the pain you've caused.
One day, I will be able to stand next to you without wanting to hold your hand.


Wednesday, January 23, 2013


When I told you that I LIKED YOU,
You told me, "I don't feel the same way.."
I was okay with it,
But then I saw your face again.

I feel IN LOVE,  then you said to me,"I LOVE YOU"
It was the BEST DAY of my life,
Just by being with you,
You told me very one that you are inlove with me.
All I said was I LOVE YOU TOO,

But now, it's doesn't matter.
It was all LIES.
Now, you have a girlfriend.
I cried so much for you..

I asked you,
"Why would you ask someone out, if you loved me so much.."
Then you said in pride,
"I didn't liked you that much in that way.."

I sat in a dark room, crying over you.
Wishing that I didn't meet you.
I cut myself for you.

And guess what I said" I LOVE YOU"
I told the people that cared about me,
They told me to forget about you,
And don't think of him.

Then I said with a tear running down my face,
"he was the ONLY thing I thought about."
I never see your face again.
But I know it's a small world,

I just have to let go of you and move on.
It's going to be hard,
But I just have to,

Coz I know there is someone out there,
Looking for me
And all I wanna do is find them
And be with them.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013


It's been a while..
It's been a while.. since the last time we talked to each other.
I know you're kinda busy with your life now, and maybe,
That's the reason why you don't have enough time for me.

You know what??
I miss those times when we share LAUGHTERS... TEARS..
I miss your KISSES, I miss EVERYTHING.

I remember the time when you told me,
That were going to STAY FOREVER..
But, looks like things have changed...

I just wanna say that, "I'M SORRY"
Sorry, if I can't understand you, right now.
Even if I try to..

It's just that, things aren't working out properly,
Between the two of us anymore.
I'm tired of CRYING.
I wanted this relationship to last, but it will just hurt myself more.

Don't worry, I promise you, I will be fine.
I will TRY to be fine. :(
It tears me up inside..
I don't wanna do this but I MUST.


THANK YOU for being part of my life.
THANK YOU for everything.
You are the reason why I became like this.

You taught me how to be TOUGH.
You taught me how to be STRONG.
I'm trying to hold the tears... I'M TRYING.

Go ahead, just GO.
I'm setting you free.
I guess, it's now time to say GOODBYE.


Monday, January 21, 2013

"WHY ME? "

I know what you did to me.
I know how many times you've lied.
I know how many times you've cheated.
And I know how many times I've asked WHY?

Why would you do this,
Is what I've asked so many times,
Unfortunately for me, NO ANSWER comes to mind.
Is there even an answer?

If so, will I ever know?
Why did you hurt me so bad??
And keep hurting me by not showing.

Not showing that you care,
Not showing that you love me.
Seeing how much you hurt me,
How easy that it seemed.

I got out my razor,
Started to cut, started to bleed,
Started to CRY,and started to SCREAM.

WHY ME??? :'(

My friends say to MOVE ON after you blew through,
But the truth is I just can't to bring myself to let go of you.
I know I need to let go of you,
But I don't know if I can.

You left me a whole in my heart,
Where you should have been,
I need you know more than ever to hold you forever.
But now, I realize how much you destroyed,

Tearing down all my dreams,
Telling me your very fake lies. :(

Now, you know why I'm trying to MOVE ON from you,
And repatch my BROKEN HEART. :'(

Sunday, January 20, 2013


What if whats best for "US" is whats hardest to do.
I still love you but I have to let you go.
When will it STOP the pain.
That darkness that... that.... that....

That part of me that was or Y-O-U!!
Why can't you fill it,
Why did you leave?
Why why why???? :'(

Love hurts but so does life.
Why is it easy to fall inlove and yet, so hard to be loved back??
Why should I feel such if destiny permits me not?
Why do I have to fall, if it's you I can't have?

Why is there a "YOU" in "ME"
But never a "ME" in "YOU"?
How can I lose something that I never had?
It HURTS THE MOST when you can actually feel your heart breaking.

True love never dies as we see in our eyes.
Only when we LET GO that we can truly say GOODBYE.
Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.
It really hurts when you expected so much more from the person you once love so much.

One day you will seek love and be "SORRY" that you threw mine away.
When you are inlove and get hurt is like a cut.
It will heal, but there will always be a scar.
Now, that I have loved so purely and deeply,
I have realized how lonely I really am.

I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had,
But, I can't because I know you won't come after me.
And I guess that's WHAT HURTS THE MOST." :'((

Friday, January 18, 2013


We started as FRIENDS. We became BESTFRIENDS as years passed.
I listened to all the stories you shared, and give you advice when you needed.
Though we both belong in the same circle of friends,
But we remained TWO SPECIAL to each other.

Years passed we had special someone in our lives..
Until we find time for each other and kept in touched.
I saw your ups and downs..
Swept your tears with my hankies..
Ease your pains with my hugs..
And tried to cheer you up and brought your smile back.

Oneday, unexpectedly you expressed what you feel for me..
I am shocked for I really feel the same way too..
I tried to keep away from you since it's COMPLICATED..
But you insisted and proved that you CARE  and LOVE ME.

When you said.." I LOVE YOU.." for the first time.
But some good things never last as a song goes..
Time came and suddenly I realized that all were just jokes.. :(

IT HURTS.... :'(

Were both troubled and fights are in between..
Until we realized that love is not binding us anymore..
And we decided go on seperate ways..
Though I still love you..
I have to let you go.. :(

I don't want to hold you and ask you to stay with me but..

We will meet..down the road..


Thursday, January 17, 2013


Sometimes people come into your life,
And you know right away that they were meant to be there.
They serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson,
Or help figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people maybe your roommate,
your neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover,
or even a complete stranger who, when you lock eyes with them,
You know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes, things happen to you and at the time they seem horrible,
painful and unfair but in reflection.. you realize that without overcoming those
obstacles you would never have realized your potential, strength, will power of heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good
or badluck, illness, injury, love, lost moments or true greatness and sheer stupidity
all occur to test the limits of the soul.

Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships,
Life would be like a smooth paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.
Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life and successes and downfalls you experience,
They are the ones who create who you are. Even the bad experience can be learned from..
Those lessons are the hardest and probably the most important ones...

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or break your heart...
FORGIVE them, for they have helped you learn about trust,
And the most importance of being cautions to whom you OPEN YOUR HEART.

If someone loves you, love them back..unconditionally,
Not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love,
And opening your heart and things you would have never seen,
Or felt without them.

Make every day count, appreciate every moment
And take from it everything that you possibly can,
for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talked people you have never talked to before, and actually listen,
Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high.
You can make of your life anything you wish.

Create your own life and then go out and live it.
I wish you all the best in your endeavors as well as struggles in life.
Have a fighting spirit and never hesitate to get back in the struggle.

--Whatever you give to life, it gives you back. Do not hate anybody.
  The hatred which comes out from you will someday comeback to you.
  Love others and love will come back to you.--

Wednesday, January 16, 2013


For a heart that's been torn there's not much you can do but to understand..
Remember this words?
There's no easy way to let go of something that I know will never happen again.
But I will face the world around me knowing that I am strong enough to let you go.

I'm aware that you only came into my life for a while,
And that time will come I have to give you up.
Then that's the end of it, there goes my life..
You left me at the moment that I can't give you up.

I cry for the memories....
I cry for the pain...
I cry for the times...
I thought I had you.

I know you're not mine,
But holding on to you have become my way to keep me ALIVE.
Wish you see the tears run from my eyes..
Coz it spells the truth about how I really feels inside.

Don't worry my tears won't blame you,
Those are just the words my heart uses to explain,
When even my smiles can't cover up my pain.

It's been a while still I can't get out from your shadow..
Till this very moment, I'm still trying to pick up those pieces.

Thank you for the love and the pain..
The pain that I'll always remember..
Even now, my heart still aches in SADNESS..
And SECRET TEARS still flow.

ONEDAY, I can say...


You are still with me even though you are not on my side.
Oneday, I will be able to stand NEXT TO YOU..
Without wanting to hold your hand..
Somewhere down my journey..

I KNOW....
I CAN....
I CAN...
I CAN...

Monday, January 14, 2013


Recovery after a break up is never easy. There will be highs and lows but you will surely move on. Initially everyone feels that this is it, you cannot go one anymore, but soon the phase will pass. Grief, Resentment, Despair, a feeling of Betrayal and Abondonment are some of the emotions that we all go through, especially if the relationship has ended on, a sour note. HERE ARE SOME TIPS TO MEND THAT BROKEN HEART.

1) Most people are in denial after a break up. They don't want to admit that it is over because the pain is too intense. But the sooner you accept it, the faster will be the healing process. It is okay to CRY and vent out your EMOTIONS but then you have to face the reality and move on.

2) You have to practice SELF-CONTROL. Do not sms your boy friend, sending him blank message or message like "I MISS YOU." It will hurt you even more when he doesn't respond back.

3) Prepare yourself for the FUTURE. Be POSITIVE and REASSURE yourself that whatever happens is for the best. You know that you deserve better, so don't brood or sulk. Read an interesting book to distract your mind, watch fun movies, listen to spiritual chants and relay the mind, body and soul.

4) Throw away any memories that remind you of your boyfriend. They will only make you dwell in the past. When he doesn't exist in your life so why should the things be around you?

5) Confide in family and friends. Their support will help you through this or deal.

6) Stop thinking about him and what he would be doing at this time. Avoid going to the places where you both used to sit, chat, hangout. It will only bring back old times memories that have NO MEANING NOW. Go to new places, learn something ne and enrich your life.

7) Change your apprearance. Don't look haggard and depressed to the world. Get a new wardrobe, change your hairstyle, visit a spa and look stylish. The NEW YOU will reflect your mind set as well.

8) Avoid jumping into relationship after a break up. It may give you a new high, but it may not always work. Instead, it may make you even more depressed. Enjoy good friendship but don't get emotionally attached at an early stage.

9) Avoid being BITTER and NEGATIVE. The angry and loathe should slowly be removed otherwise it comes out unconsciously when you are dealing with people in the future.

10) Life is TOO SHORT so you have to move on to enjoy the rest of it. The one who left you, don't deserve you slowly should you feel bad. He is the one who couldn't see the gem that he lost. One day, when he does, he will repent because you have moved to a better world.

Saturday, January 12, 2013


I wish that I could endure this feelings of being hurt,
Because I chose this, I was the one who wanted this.
I wish I could tell you that..

I wish I could..
I wish I could..
But I couldn't.
I am such a bad person,
Because the truth is I'm still HOPING..
You could tell me.. I wish it's still me. :'(
LET IT BE ME...:'(

I know, you love her..
Because she love you at your worst..
I had you at your best..
And I just neglected all of that.
I just made a chose, and I chose to break your heart. :'(

I'm sorry for not saying sorry before..
When I've HURT YOU..
When we both broke up.
I only thought of...
I'm sorry that I became selfish.
I wasn't aware that..
You also need to find the old you when you loved me.

And I still loves you
You don't know how much I want to tell you..
I wish it's still us.
I wish it's still us again.. :'(
But if everytime I feel how much I love you..
I can't fight this feelings.
of feeling all the pain again..

And I'm sorry..
This is me..
This time, it's me who needs time..
So, that I could forget, all the PAIN.
So, that I could remember, all the wonderful and good things about us.
So, that the OLD ME who was lost could return.
When we both got seperated..
I want my heart to stop BREAKING.
So that, if ever we'll be together again.
I could love you with all my heart.
With no mixed feeling of fear,
If ever we'll be hurt again. :'(

"People say, that maybe the people who we love left us,
Because maybe there is someone better, who'll come into our lives.
Who'll even love us better, someone who won't hurt and give us too much hope.
The only one person, who'll correct all the wrong in our lives, of all the wrong in your life."