Sunday, January 29, 2012


She was my school fellow. Faiza was 15 years old and I was 19years old, when I fell in love with her. she was a beautiful and pretty girl. She was also counted in bright students of the school. Many others boys wanted to be her friend but she did not accepted their friendship. I also had desire to be friend of her.  but I was afraid of her refusal. I was not just like her but also loved her.

One day I took courage and stopped her on the way of school. She was much confused at my stupid act. She did not look at me and was standing silently. Then, I asked, do you like me? She did not reply. I said, I like you but not, I love you so much. She looked at me; her eyes were full of tears. She did not reply me and said to leave her way. Her tears made me perplexed. I did not want to hurt her. Then I was unease and wanted to know the reason of her tears.

She was sitting in canteen alone. I sat beside her and asked her to come with me. She accepted my offer at once. I was surprised at her reaction. I was hope that she will angry with me and will shout at me but her response was positive. I was very happy when she was sat on my bike. It was first time, a girl was sat on my bike.

We reached in a park. We were sitting silently. Then I started to saying. I asked her the reason of her tears. She said, she also loves me but she was in wait of my declaration.  She said, I will always with you and will never leave me alone in life. Her promise made so glad.

Now we met daily in that park. I picked her to school and also dropped her at home. Soon our love story got fame in school. Most of our time, we passed with each other.

She invited me on dinner at her home. There was only her mother in the house. Her father had dead. Her mother loved her daughter so much. Faiza introduced me with her mother, he is my school fellow. His name is Danish. His gave me blessings and asked bout my family. I told her all about my family.

Then, mostly I went to her house to meet her. Her mother never became angry with me. She loved me like her son. I also went there in absence of her mother. Gradually, we came much closer to each other. It was impossible for us to live away of each other.

I became mad in her love. She also loved me so much. It was so difficult for us to pass a moment without each other. We were in love for 7 years. During those years, my love for her changed into my craze. It was my only purpose to marry with Faiza.

One day her mother invited me at her home. She asked me, what I think about her daughter? I said, I love her so much, she is my life. I want to marry with her, if you give permission. She said,  I am not agree with you. I can not wed my daughter with you, because I had decided to wed her with her cousin since her childhood. He is the son of my elder brother. I can not refuse my brother. So, you should forget her. I was in shocked, when her mother asked me to forget her. I requested her, please don’t do that, I will die without my life and Faiza is my life. She is the heart beat of my. If she was not in my life, how I will alive? But she did not accept my request.

I asked her, why you did not stop me to come there? Why you did not stop me to love your daughter in beginning? Why did you offer me to come your house? Now I loved her more than my life and you are saying to forget her.

She said, I know you love my daughter so much and will keep her so happy. But I did not forget the promise, what was I had given to my brother. If my daughter wants to marry with you, first she will leave me and

I was not ready to accept her any excuse. She said, ok I leave the decision on my daughter. She called her and asked her, what she wants?  She looked at me and then looked at her mother face. She said, I love you so much Danish, but I can not leave my mother alone.

For Love

First time I saw her in a shopping center. She was with an old lady. Her innocent face touched my heart. I was looking at her and at once she was out of sight. When I came into senses, I began to search for her in the shopping center. But I could not found her.

My heart was uneasy for her and i was just praying to see her one more time. Daily i went to the shopping center in search of her but vain. I did not lose hope. I was sure to meet her one day and i will express my feelings which were rose in my heart after seeing her. She was in my thinking all the time and i felt she is near to me. But those were all my imagines. All the time i pray to God to see her. I did not know that what was happened with me? Her innocent face rounded in my eyes and her thought was always in my mind.

One evening i was sat with my friend in a p;ark. I was telling my friend about her. Suddenly, that  innocent face passed by my eyes. I thought, it is just deception of my eyes. She was still in front of my eyes. Then i made sure, in fact she was there. I ran after her. When reached at her back, i said, excuse me miss……….. She turned back and looked at me. I was painting due to run. She asked me, have you any problem. Her sweet voice made me intoxicate. I control my emotions and then replied her. I want to talk to you miss. She said, do i know you? I want you should know me. She smiled at my reply and said, i have no interest to talk with a stranger. I gave my hand to her and asked, would you like to be my friend. She did not give her hand. I will think about it then will reply you, she said and turned back. I asked her name. My name is Rija and what is your name Mr…….. she asked me. My name is Ahsan Ali. She said i came there daily and went on her way. I felt she invited to come there to see her. I understood, she was a little interested in me.

I went to the park daily and met her. Gradually, we became good friend, but i want to express my love to her. She had told me all about herself. She belonging to a middle class family.

One evening we sat in a coffee shop. At once she became afraid. I asked her, what happened? At the same time, a man came to our table and met her with great affection. I was so confused about him. She introduced him to me. He is my cousin Fiaz. Her husband in future, Fiaz said and he burst into laughter. He asked her about me. She replied my friend Ahsan. He also sat with us and began to talk with Rija. She was looking afraid and confused. He offered her to go with him but she refused. After a while he went away. After his going, i asked her, why she did not tell me about her engagement. she did not say something and began to crying. Please tell me, if you have any problem, i will help you. Then she said, he is not my fiance but forcibly he wanted to marry me. I do not like him. My parents also dislike him. He is not a good man.

I  asked her, what do you want? She replied, i just want to you Ahsan. I was very happy with her declaration. I had no courage to say her that she said very easily. Rija asked me, do you like me? I said, no i do not like you. Her face became the sign of sadness at my reply. Then i said, i do not like you but i love you so much Rija. Now her tears were on her cheeks. I hold her in my arms. And hugged her. She said, i need you Ahsan to face such(Fiaz) problems. Will you help me? I promised her to do help in every trouble. Now she was in my arms like an afraid child.

I went to her home with my parents. My parents offered her parents my proposal. They were surprised and also confused at that proposal. Then i made them understand that i love Rija and want to marry her. They told about Fiaz and said he will do anything. I made them assure, I will face him for Rija. I will do everything for her. Then they agreed with me and be ready to wed Rija with me.

When Fiaz listened that news. He came Riaj’s house and threaten her parents. They made a call to me and told me about Fiaz. I took Rija with me and went to his home. When he saw, Rija’s hand in my hand. He became furious and came to me. I said to him, now she is my responsibility and if you think about her, i will kill you Mr. Fiaz. I love Rija and  she loves me. Now you do not take any interest in our life, i will be better for you. He was just looking me and did not say something.

After a while he said, i accept your love and will never disturb you both. He said, i had seen as such lover in your eyes for Rija, i had no lover for her ever. I am happy for both of you and always pray to God for you. Then we came to our home. Our parents decided to marry soon. Now we are living a happy life. There is no fear in her life but just my love and have faith to do everything for her love.

Friday, January 27, 2012

Love At First Sight

Aima has passed her B.A exams in first division. She expressed her desire for M.A. She was interested to get admission in the University. Her father was a narrow minded person. He always kept a boundary around Aima. He did not like that his daughter get education in a University. He always against the co-education system. Her mother was died.

Aima’s elder brother Sajid insured his father, she will never loose our trust. He requested his father, please give permission to her. So, her father agreed and gave her permission.

She took admission in University. At first day at University, she was so confused and nervous. Everyone looked at her because she was so pretty with her beautiful sky eyes and has very fair complexion.
She was feeling uncomfortable. She was taking step in hurry, she clashed with a boy and her books fell down. She looked at him and said, Sorry. But boy could not said something because he was lost in her eyes. He was just looking at her and she stepped forward. His name was Sameer. He was the student of final year. He was one of the brilliant students of the University. He was not interested in girls. Most of the girls tried to be his friends but he refused them. As he saw Aima, he just thought about her all time. He tried to talk her but had no courage.

One day he saw Aima was sitting alone in a lawn. He came to her and sit beside her. He said to her, would she like to be his friend. She did not reply and stood up. Sameer stand up also and asked her again. She replied, she did not like to talk strangers and went away. After that sameer tried to met her daily and asked to be friend.
One day he was sitting sad in his room. His mother came and asked him the reason of his sadness, he replied, he loved to a girl.His mother asked, who is she? He told his mother about Aima.

His mother said, did you express your love?. He replied, no. His mother made him clear, just expressed your love to her. I hope she will accept.
He saw Aima in library. He sat near her and said i want to say something please came out of library. She came out with him. Aima asked him what he want to say. He expressed his love in front of her. She stood up but Sameer caught her hand and said, if she refused then he will kill himself. He perplexed her, she began to cry.

He talked her in a sober way and asked the reason of her crying. She made him clear it is not possible to love anyone. Her family will never accept her love. Sameer requested her please try to agree her family. He said , he can’t live with out her. He had lost in her simplicity and in her beautiful eyes since he looked her . He had decided to marry her.
When Aima saw his madness, she became agreed to talk with her family. She thought her brother Sajid will help her. So, she decided to tell her brother about their love.

She also loved Sameer, from that time when she struck him. She could not understand, what thing attracted her towards Sameer. Perhaps, it is the elegant personality of Sameer which impressed Aima at first sight.
She told her brother all about her love, she hoped her brother give her support but he slapped Aima. He shouted at her, you have broken our trust. You were not able to go to university. He told his father about
er. He made a call to Aima, she told him all the situation. Sameer asked her, will she go with him. She accepted his offer because she also loved him so much. She was ready to do everything for her love. She was not happy in her house, that was no more than a prison.

So, in the evening Sameer came to her gate. He phone Aima, she was also waiting him . Her father and her brother were not at home. She came out and met Sameer. He took her to his house. His mother was so happy to see Aima, she was excited because her son had got his love today.

Aima forgot her cruel father and brother forever. She lived happily with Sameer.

Darkness and Tears

The story is about the waiting world of a eastern wife who was standing on two way i.e. life and death. She had  severe wish that her husband would near to her at the painful occasion. At last her waiting expectation ended with her life end. A continuous noise of weeping and screaming from far away was of those women who were crying at my aunt’s death.

I was so little then the incident took place. Voice of tom tom rose up sometimes with the voice of grief. A woman was singing marriage song on tom tom. Now I’m young and can understand by thinking about that incident. The crying women were condoling and the singing woman was my grandmother people says, pitiable mother has mad in sorrow of her daughter’s death.

No face is remembered me in that dark cloud of grief. My other aunts said, the late aunt loved me very much she took care of me. But i didn’t remember her face even. perhaps, we are nearest to reality and truth in childhood ware not sensible of unknown talking and acting. later on,my grandma was often wept in her daughter’s remembrance. But i had not tried to shown the expression of sympathy. Probably, my six sense had knowledge that every person is alone in such dejected and heart rending condition. So, every attempt of help is in vain.

My grandfather was a big officer of Railway. He was very capable man. He was a man of principles. He had four daughters and two sons. He preferred the poor but most intelligent, sensible and capable than rich. By whom, he could married his daughters and could make lives of the boys.

Yasir, the only child of poor parents was searched for my late aunt Hinza. He was not rich but intelligent.

Aunt Hinza was more educated than other sisters. She was wise, intelligent and beautiful. My grandpa married his daughter Hinza with Yasir and also kept his son-in-law on a good job. Probably, the first year of aunt’s marriage was passed better. Her husband was intoxicated in fond of new job and wife. Who had seen the pleasure and enjoyment of life at first time. i-.e. comfortable and full of luggage home and good job. He felt himself like emperor.

After a year, aunt Hinza went to mother’s home for an instance of child birth. She thought, her husband will have to face trouble after behind her. She was a caring wife. So, she said to her sister, who lived near her house, please gave her husband dinner at least . So Mr.Yasir was used to go home of his sister-in-law for dinner.

After four five days, my second aunt’s mother in law said, son, you are so qualified and come daily. Exam of Tari, the sister-in-law of aunt, are very near . If you don’t mind please, teach my daughter maths and Eng. So, yasir started to teach Tari for an hour.

Then the time of tuition an hour was going to increase and reached encircling of three four hours. My aunt took a breathe of thanks,when Tari’s exams have done. After exams, Tari started going to Yasir’s home by pretending of her different friends for hours. His home was vacant for both.

Aunt Hinza was posting letter, i wish you are also close to me when our child come in world. There are all my relatives but I’m fearful and feel myself lonely .Specially, the time of birth when my life will have knocked at the door of death and death will placed new lamp of your family on life’s hand. At that time of doomsday, please! you live with me. Don’t know who will escape, who will not. My aunt’s husband had not gone. Hinza had spawn a pretty daughter. A letter was written to her husband but did he not come to see his daughter. Yasir was trapped by Tari. He had no concern by Hinza, her life or death.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Forget Me

Zameer and Palwasha were engaged in their childhood. It was the decision of their parents but they had accepted that they are made for each other. Their like and dislike was same.

Zameer loved Palwasha but Palwasha loved him so much, she was more emotional for him than Zameer. She had accepted him everything of her. She could not imagine any other person as her life partner except Zameer.

Zameer shared his every problem with her. His every happiness was attached with her. He had never thought any other girl will be entered in his life and she will become more important than Palwasha.
Zameer’s father decided to send him to Germany for higher education. His father’s decision mad sad both of them. Zameer would not endure her separation. It was also very difficult for Palwasha to live without him. But Sameer was forced by his father. So, he went to Germany .he admitted in a university there. In the beginning he missed Palwasha so much. He made a call daily to her. Palwasha was also waited for his call. She was lost in his thought. Even she felt his presence. She became mad for him. In first two moths Zameer called Palwasha daily but as time passed he called her two times in a week. She was upset about him. She asked him, why do you call me just two times in a week? He replied I am much busy in my study.

First term exams were very close. After exams I shall call you two times in a day. She became happy.

But as mothers passed, he called her in one time in a week or in two week. If he had made a call, he talked to her for few mints. She was much worried about his changing behavior. She was looked sad all the time. Her beautiful like rose face became fade. The shining of her eyes became less. All the family members were much worried about her. They were also aware of the behavior of Zameer.

Now three months had passed. But he did not call at home. He was also not in contact with Palwasha. One day he made a call to Palwasha.

She was listening silently, after few minutes. She said, is it your final decision? She felt something was broken in her. Zameer replied, I had told to everyone at home, why don’t you accept that relationship which are decided in childhood, we named they love but later on we thought that it was not love. It is just a feeling. We can just feel it. If we named it love to live together whole life, it is only a successive to deceit yourself.

We are grown up in one house. Then our parents told us that we were engaged from childhood. It is not sure; if our elder decided our relationship then we shall perform it forcibly.

Zameer was silent now. Since yesterday Zameer was talking in same bad behavior with all the family members. His every word has injured her heart.

“Forcibly” she was grumbling. Zameer was listening silently. She spoke in a taunting tone. I accept your every decision. She requested him, but please give me the answer of my question. He asked what question. She said, was it compulsion to love me before our elder tell us or you playing with my emotions? He said, listen Palwasha, no one forced me and not I was playing with your emotions. I came to close to you and sharing with you, I always took it as love. But after came here in Germany. My first meeting with Sofia made me credibility that I was still wrong. Sofia was my destination, but she is. Do you understand what I am saying?

I and Sofia will get married very soon. I wish you also forget me and also forget all the memories which are attached with me and all the follies we had made in the name of love. You should start your new life. It was not my aim to live along you. I am going to start a new life. Please you also forget everything and live your life happily. I can not be serious for you ever.

After saying that, he disconnected the call. Palwasha was watching the silent soundless receiver. She was sat down and began crying. She thought, how easily he said, forget me and everything.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Except to You

I saw her on a bus stand. She was standing there in wait of bus. I also stood there for bus. When bus came, all the people who were waiting for bus moved quickly towards the bus. I was just looking at her. She was trying to ride in the bus but there were so many crowds. It was difficult for a girl to ride in the bus. I ridded and then I gave my hand to her. She did not catch my hand. I said to her, bus will started soon and you will not ride with support. Then she caught my and I lifted her in the bus. She left my hand and stood in a side. There was no a seat to sit. It was not good to stand a girl among the men. I asked to boy to give her seat. He refused and said did she your sister, you had care of her so much. I did not say anything, but gave him a slap on his face. Then I said, don’t you know to respect a female. A girl is standing among the men and you are sitting on a seat with relief. He stood up at once and said to her to sit. She looked at me with angry eyes but I put my eyes down. Now the college stop was come, I got down and she also got down. She was going towards the college. I asked her, did you new student in college. She did not reply. I asked her again, then she said, I did not like to such people who slap to others. I smiled and understood she was still angry with me. Now we reached in college. She was going towards the lecture room. I did not pursuing her. I came to friends, they were waiting for me. Today my condition was changed, my smiley face and I was snuffling a song also. My friends were perplexed to see me. They asked me the reason of my happiness. Then I told them I met a girl, she is so pretty, her green eyes, long light brown eyes and sweet voice made me crazy friends. I have decided to her boy friend. She will be my girl friend. Then after that we will get married. I was dreaming then my friend said, first you become his friend and then boy friend. Did she accept your friendship? I though, if she will not accept me love then. I will forced her to love with me.

Next day she was also at the bus stop. I came near to her and said I want to be your friend. She did not give me any attention. I felt, she is feeling shame because people on the bus stop were seeing us. I felt embarrass and stopped talking. So bus came and we ridded in the bus. We reached college. As we entered the college gate she began to shouting at me. Don’t you know to respect a female? Have any manners or not. How cheap to request  a girl for friendship on the bus stop. I felt I had mistake. I said, sorry to her. She did not give me any response and went to her class room.

My friends said, you did not choose a good place to request for friendship

After a while, I saw her sitting in a lawn. She was sitting alone there. I went there and sat beside her. She looked at me and turned her face to the other side. I asked her, did you angry with me? She did not reply and was busy in her book reading. I asked her again, and then she turned and said, what do you want? I said, you. She said, what do you mean? Then I said, I like you and want to be your friend. She said, how many girls were your friends? I said you will be the first. She said any special reason to be my friend. I said, yes, I never felt such feelings for any girls, which I felt for you. When I saw you on the bus stop first time, my heart beat became fast and did not understand how it was happened. My friend also said, I am looking changed.  I said, in fact I did not like you but love you. Her smiling face became a sad. She at once looked at me and said, I t is not possible for me to love any one. I asked her, did you engage? She said, no but my family will accept my love. So, I had never thought about the love.

She stood up to go, I caught her hand. She said, it will be very bad for you. Please forget me and I am not for you. I said, I have decided to get marry with you. No one can change my intention. She said, ok I will try to talk with my brother. He can understand me. If he agreed with me then my family will agree.

I asked her daily, did she tell her brother. She said, I need more courage to talk with my brother. I am thinking, how tell him? I am much afraid of his anger.

Three days passed but she did not come to college. I was worried about her. at the forth day, when I came to college. A girl gave me an envelope. It was her letter. In which, she had written. Please forget me; I am forced by my family. I can not leave my family but I can not live without you. In few days, I fell in love with you and you became very special for me. My life is incomplete without you but I can not go opposite my family. My brother stopped me to go to college and he decided to wed me with an old man. He said, It is my punishment to break his trust. So, I had decided, I will finish my self because I can not accept any other person except you as my life partner. I pray for you, you will find a good girl in your life.

When, I read the letter. I got her address from the admission register. I went to her home to stop her. When, I reached there. The scene of mourning was there. I asked a man of street, what happened in that house? He told me, there young daughter had done suicide. I felt my heart beat was stopped. I fell down.

When I opened my eyes, I was in the hospital. My friends were all there. At once her face came in my eyes. I shouted loudly. She became the victim of her family stubbornness. I was also responsible for her death. I did not express my love to her and she did not talk to her family. I can never forget her. I am now busy in life but her innocent face and talks make me unease.

Sunday, January 22, 2012


I and Nida were engaged since our childhood at the wish of our parents. We were very good friends and she was also my cousin. We were engaged, both of us were unfamiliar of this. We lived in joint family. We played together and also shared every thing with each other.

When, I have passed my metric exams. My mother called me in her room. She seated me with her and started to make me understand. She said, I know my son is growing up. I want to say something. A truth is not in your knowledge. She said to me, now you are going to get admission in college. It is the part of age when you can like some girl for you. May be you fell in love someone and then she will become the part of your life. I want to tell you that we have decided your life partner.

I was surprised to hear my mother’s talk. She said you can not object for that relationship. I said can I ask about her, who is she? My mother said you know her. I said who? She said Nida. She said if I want to give place in my heart then she should be Nida. I was very happy with my parent’s decision. I said to my mother, no, I have no objection for this relationship. I was happy because she was my good friend, if she will become my life partner then I will very lucky. She was so sensible and well mannered girl. She was so simple and was not wanton like my other cousins. She was silent by nature and always was lost in herself. Her habits attracted me more. She has much friendly relation with me and now she was also deserved to my love. I asked my mother, does she know about it. Mother said I have no knowledge.

Now Nida did not talk to me. It was not our playing age. I have gotten admission in college. My heart was beaten for her every time. We lived together but I saw her little. Just at the time of breakfast, lunch and dinner I could see her. We all watched T.V together but she was in her room. She was busy in her books. I was known she was so much intelligent but when she did not come with us I felt very bad. But she was still dear to every one. She was so polite and so pretty. When any person admired her nature, I felt proud that she is going to be my wife.

I thought that she was feeling shy from me. Perhaps her mother had also told her about our relationship.
Gradually time was passed. But she did not change her habits. i was student of final year. Now we go to college together because she was also student of first year. I can see her in college. My feelings were increasing for her. I wanted that she should know about my emotions. She should feel someone loves her so much.

It was moon night of Eid. My cousins were on the roof. Nida was also there. We were there to search the moon. All were looking in the sky but my eyes were fixed on her face because she was the moon of my life happiness. At once my cousin made a noise for moon. Moon was seen on the sky. We all hugged each other and gave congratulation to each other. But Nida did not come to near to me and not said cognate. All were going down to meet with elder of family. I called slowly Nida and said I want to talk to you. She stopped there.

Now I and she were alone on the terrace. She was standing with slanted eyes. I said happy moon and moved my hand towards her. She gave her hand in my hand and said thanks. We were stood in such condition for few moments. Then with a jerk she pulled her hand. I felt she is feeling shy. I said why do you feel shy from me? You were not as like before. She said do you not know? I said no I do not know. She then will ask to you mother. She turned to go down but I caught her hand and pull her to wards me. She said please leave my hand, If any one will come. I said will come then we are engaged, all the family members know that.

She looked at me and said you know everything. I said yes I know about this relationship before three years ago. Now I want to know that do you agree with your parents. Do you like me? She said yes I like you and also loves you so much. She pulled her hand and ran. I was very happy because I have found two moons that night. One of Eid moon and other was moon of my life.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

To face hardships

First time I met her on the road. At once she stroked with me. All the shopping bags in her hands were fallen down. She was in hurry. She collected all the bags quickly. I helped her to collect all the things. She was looking so much confused. She collected her things and step forward quickly. I was just looking at her. When she had gone, I saw her hand bag was there. I picked it and wanted to give her. But she was gone. I found her identity card in her bag. I read her address and decided to go her home to return her bag.

Next day I reached at her home. I knocked at the door. A little boy came out and asked me, to whom you want to meet? I said to Miss Aneela. He said she is my mother. I asked him to tell his mother about me. After few minutes she came at the door. I gave her the bag. She was so glad to see her bag. She said, I do not know you. I told her, you were stroked with me yesterday. She said I did not remember. She said I am very thanking full to for returning her bag. She offered me a cup of tea. Intentionally I accepted her offer. Then I entered in her house. There was no body accept both of them. She seated me in drawing room. She went to kitchen to make tea.

I asked her son about his father. He said I had never seen my father. I was surprised at his reply. He was so innocent and cute boy. He was busy in playing game. After a while she entered there with two cups of tea. She gave me a cup and sat on the sofa. She was also taking tea. There was much silent and then she started to talk. I am thankful for your kindness. Otherwise who return the things? I said it was my duty to return your.

She was quite young lady of 27 years old. I asked her, when you were got married? She smiled and did not give any answer. She said to her son to go out and play there. Then she said to me, I am not married. I was much surprised at her reply. I asked then that boy? She said he is my real son.

I said if you don’t mind, may ask the fact? She became sad and her eyes were filled with tears. I said sorry to her and said, I did not want to hurt you. She said, no its ok. Actually no body asked me ever about my life. I could not tell the reality of my life to any one. But today you had asked me then I will tell you about me.

She said, I was eighteen years old. I was the student of fsc. I liked my class fellow Aneel so much. We were read together from one class. He was so gentle boy. I liked his behavior. His good attitude and respected nature attracted me more toward him. I had never spoken to him about my love feelings. I wanted he said to me that he like me. But he also had not said. He was so respected to girls, therefore he did not express me his love. But I knew that he also liked me.

One day we were sitting in college lawn. I asked to him I want to say something. He said I know what you want to say. Then he saw in my eyes and said he loves me. I was so much glad at his declaration. That was the happiest day of my life because; I had gotten my love without any struggle. He said, he will talk to his parents soon and we will get married. I was agreed with him. He invited me at his home for a party. I accepted his invitation.

In the evening I reached at his home. When I was entered in the house, there was no body there. He welcomed me and took me in his drawing room. I asked about other friend. He said he had arranged that party just for me. I was surprised, he loved me so much and he arranged a party just for me. then he proposed me and gave me a diamond ring. I was so excited at his surprise. Then he gave me a cold drink. I drank it and after a while I felt something wrong was happened with me. I felt a little headache. At that time I saw his changed attitude. He was drinking and laughing loudly. His strange behavior made me confused. But I could not control my self.

Then I wake up, I was in hospital. My family was all there. I could not understand what was happened with me. When I came in senses. I came to know that I had lost everything. My mother told me Aneel had left me at home in very bad condition. He told them I was found him in the bar. He had spoken lie to my family. I was raped by him. But he told lie to my family and went away. Then I was pregnant and mother said to me to abort the child. I was still in shock. I loved him so much and my love was true for him. I thought why he had done with me bad. I did not agree with my mother. I wanted to born my baby because I loved Aneel so much.

Then my father said, if not I agreed with them then I should leave his house. There is no place for me. I requested to my father to give me support against Aneel but he said, he is not ready to be insulted in the world. So I decided to leave the house of my father. Then, I decided to face the hardships of my life alone. I thought I will face the world. I will birth my child. From that day I am living alone. Now my son is nine years old. He had never asked me about his father and I also never told him about that cheap person. Now my life is my son. I faced many problems and pains for him. But I will safe my son from the bad habits. I will teach my son to fight against the wrong to face the hardships of life. He will face the reality of life with strong heart and mind.

When, I listened her story. I thought she is such a strong woman, who faced the very bad circumstances. She was just 27years old but her courage was so much high. I respect her and offered her if any time she need any help she should call me. I will give her any support. But she said; now I had taught to face the hardships alone. I respect her much. I am against those boys who made victim such innocent girls for their bad purpose.

Friday, January 20, 2012

First Impression

I was standing at the bus stop. I was waiting for the bus. I was already late. I have to go for an interview in a company. At once a man came and stood beside me. He was wearing two piece suite. His condition was not showing him a bus traveler. So, bus came and all the people who were waiting moved quickly to the bus. I and that suited man were in the end. He also rod on the bus, but I was still outside. Bus started, he gave me his hand. I did not think anything and caught his hand. He lifted me in the bus. People around us were looking us. Then I thought, I had caught his hand. I left his hand with a jerk.

I was standing, he was at my back. He touched with his hand on my back. I turned and looked at him, he was smiling. I did not say and thought by chance his hand touched me. After a while, he again touched my waste. I turned and gave a slap on his face. He also raised his hand to slap me but he stopped. I said, don’t you know to respect females. He said, I respected you and you gave me a slap. Oh yes; thank you, I caught your hand and now you can touch me anywhere. He said, what rubbish, I did not touched you. He was not ready to confess. Then I asked to other passengers they also insulted him. He said to me, I helped you and insulted me. You are really a cheap and kindness forgotten girl. Bus stopped on a stop and he got down.
Then bus started to move forward.

Now bus stopped on my stop. I got down step forward to the office building. I was much confused because I was late and also confused about the interview. As entered in the door, I man stroked with me. When I saw, he was the same man who was quarreling with me in the bus. I shouted at him, you are chasing me and now you reached there. He said, I am not ready to listen idle talk of you, because of you I have already late. I said to him, not because of you I have late. He did not reply and went away; I also moved towards the waiting room. Many other candidates were sitting there. I asked one of them, is interview going on? He said to me, it is not started yet. I took a breath of relief.

The interview started. One by one candidates went in with fresh faces and came out wit dull face. I was so much confused what will happen with me? My turn was at end, all the candidates’ have gone. Servant came and said, miss now your turn. I thought, of course my turn because there was nobody except me. I felt little in confidence; I took a long breath and entered in the room. I saw the back of the chair. The face of the man was on other side. He asked me to sit and asked for my document. I gave him my file and sat on the chair. He said, so your name is Miss Faria and turned his chair. As I saw him, I stood up at once. He was the same man. He said to me to sit down. I was still standing. He said to me again to sit. I sat on the chair.

He checked my file and asked some general questions. Then he said to me, you can go now. I picked my document and came out of the room.
When I came back at home, I was so upset. I have decided, this job is not for me. My mother asked me about the interview. I told her about the today incident. My mother also became upset but satisfied me and said, If that job is in your luck then no body can do anything, you will get it.

Next morning I started to search for the new vacancy in the newspaper. At the same somebody knocked at the main door. My mother opened the door. A man gave him an envelope. She gave it to me. It was the appointment letter of my job. I was so excited but also confuse. My mother was also so happy.

I went to the office. As I entered in the door, the receptionist called me and said M.D sir is waiting for you. I asked her the name of the M.D, she replied, his name is sir Hammad. So, I moved forward to his cabin. I knocked at the door. He said, please come in Miss Faria. I was confused, how he recognized me? He said to me to sit. I sat on the chair. He was busy in reading a file. he said to me, you are appointed on the post of my personal assistant, he rose his head and looked at me. At once my heart beat became fast. I put down my eyes. He said Miss Nida will tell you all about your work. You will learn with deep attention. He said, Miss Faria there is no capability for a mistake. Now you can go on your seat and started you work.

I came to my seat. Miss Nida made me understand everything with love and sincerity. Therefore I learned all the tasks very soon and easily.

After passing few days, sir Hammad called me in his cabin and said I am happy with you. You are doing your job very good. Now you will not be over confident. Do your work with same devotion. I promised him I will do my job with sincerity and devotion. He smiled and said to me to go.

Gradually I forgot the bus incident. He also forgot that. Now he started to behave with me like friends. I did not know; when I was fell in love with him. Often I lost in his thoughts, but I did not forget my duty.

One day he came at my home with his mother. I was so much confused to see them there. After a while his mother declared the reason of their arrival. She asked my mother to give my hand for his son. I was surprised. My mother said, it is good fortune of my daughter to be the daughter in law of you. It the good fortune of me that Hammad will be the son in law of me. My mother asked me about Hammad, I was already loved him, I accepted him. Then our marriage had decided and soon we got married.

At our marriage night, Hammad told me that he did not touch me in the bus. But she did not give him a chance to tell the truth. Then he told, he loved me from that day, when I slapped him. He decided to marry with me. He said, your beauty did not impress me. But your courage and your slap on my face impressed me more. Your first impression forced me to think about you. I loved you from that moment. But I did not express my feelings ever. I wanted to give you a surprise

Now I am very happy because Hammad is my life partner. He is a sensible person. He did not take my behavior in negative side. If he took my attitude on wrong side, he will punish me for my slap and will make my life ruin. But Hammad filled my life with happiness and joys.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

First Love Never Forgets

Just a month was left behind in the marriage of Sara and Ayyan. Sarah was a pretty, good house keeper and a simple girl. Ayyan was also smart, respectful and a successful business man. Aayan’mother liked the simplicity of Sarah. And chose her as her son’s bride.

Ayyan was busy in work as well as was lost in Sara’s beauty. He often remembered the stormy night, when he had lifted Sara from in front of his bungalow. She was wet in rain and was shivering with fever. Her beauty and simplicity had impressed Ayyan at first sight. Ayyan lived with his mother in a vast bungalow.

His mother sympathetic lady. She was very kind to Sarah. Sarah had told her whole story to Ayyan’s mother. She gave protection to Sarah. Now Sarah was lived them. She had silent nature.

Sarah was brought up by her maternal uncle. Who brought to his home after her parents death. His wife disliked Sarah. She was cruel to Sarah. Sarah had to endured her cruelty with silence. But she had supported of her cousin Saad. She got education just of his support. While, his mother was not agreed. She just heated her.

One night Sarah was accused of immoral by Saad’s mother. She charged that there was somebody in Sara’s room. She was talking to him. Sarah was silent. She looked in Saad eyes but she didn’t see any help. So the aunt got Sarah out of the house.

Marriage days were coming close. Ayyan was much pleased. While, Sarah was dejected day by day. She could not forget her first love, “Saad”. Actually Sarah and Saad were in love.But Saad was afraid of his mother behavior and to hide his love. He was waiting of suitable occasion. At that night when his mother got Sarah out of home. There was no man in Sara’s room but was Saad.

Who was come with good news that he will tell everyone about his love tomorrow. And made decision to marry Sarah. just Sarah. Sarah went out with pain of Saad’s silence at that night. While she was needed of his support.

She wanted to forget Saad because he was fraudulent in her view. But she could not forget him for a moment because he was her first love. She always felt restless for Saad with heart and soul. One day Aayan’mother went to hospital for her routine checkup, Sarah was also with her. A nurse came to doctor for assistance and was confused to patient, Saad. Doctor excused to Ayyan’s mother and went to see the patient. Sarah heard the name of Saad. Her heart was beating fast.

She ran behind doctor. She was surprised to see Saad. He was to much weak and powerless. His eyes were closed and the name of Sarah was on her tongue. She could not control her emotions and went ahead to Saad. She called his name. Saad opened his eyes and wept bitterly to see her.She wept too and kissed his hands. She promised not to let him alone. Saad’s mother told to Sarah that Saad had told all the story to his mother at that night.

He decided to die without Sarah. She was in his heart and mind. He searched her every where but failed. He had no wish of life. Sarah was feeling guilty. Saad said in weak voice, Sarah! you are my first and last love. No one can take your place in my life. Both looked to heart’s fill at sight and promised to live along forever.

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Just for You

Only a week was left in our marriage. Sara invited me at her home and asked me; you should think about your life once again. Will be happy with me? Then I said, I love you so much Sara and I will be happy with you and will be along with you for ever.

I had seen her first time in a school. I was invited there as chief guest of the function. At the end of the function, principal introduced me with entire staff. There was a teacher; she was standing alone in a corner. She was so simple and silent. When I asked about her, principal told about her. She is the most intelligent and sensible teacher of our school. But she had a tragedy in her life. Two years ago she had lost her eyes in an accident. She also told that all the function was arranged by her. She has not eyes but her devotion for her profession made her a great teacher. Principal was telling abut her and I was just looking at her. Her innocent smile mad me crazy for her. I decided to purpose her.

Daily I went to the school at off time. I wanted to know about her. I got all the information about her and also get her home address. She was came to school on a bus and the same bus dropped her at home.
One day I reached at school. It was the off time. She was standing in wait of her bus. I went to near her and told her about me. I am Sahir, Miss Sara. She recognized me at once and said, Sahir who was the chief guest of our function. I said, yes! I want to talk to you. She said, I am listening. I offered her to drop at her home. First she refused but I forced her to come with me then she accepted my offer. On the way I asked her about her family and about her. She told that she and her mother lived in a house alone. She is doing job in that school for five years. But an accident had changed completely her life. She began to cry. I said, I did not want to hurt you. In that time we reached at her home and she go out off the car and said bye.

I decided to be her friend first. I went daily to school and dropped her at home. Soon we became good friends. She shared with me her all problems and her every little happiness. Sixth months were passed. Now I want to tell her that I love her so much. I was little frightened, what was her reaction.

I asked her for lunch. She accepted and we went to a restaurant. We were sitting silently. Then she asked me, would I want to say something. I was surprised, how she understood that? I said, yes! Today I want ask you something. Did you love someone ever? She smiled and said, my life did not give me the chance to love anyone. I asked, if your life gives you a chance to love then what you do. She make a loud laugh and said. It is impossible, no one can love me. I also do not want to ruin the life of someone.

I said, I love you Sara so much. She stood up at once and said; no I do not love you. I can not destroy happy life. I am a blind girl. My life is full darkness and I will not make your life dark. I said, it will my pleasure if you accepted my life. I do not want anything from you. I just want to give you all the happiness of life. I want to full you life happiness and bright. I want; you will see the whole world with my eyes. I will always with you and never leave you alone.

She said, if your family will not accept me? I assured her, my family is with me. There is nothing important for them than my wishes. I had agreed my family and they know all about you.

She accepted my love and now we are getting married. But she has a fear in her mind that I will be happy with her or not. I assured her, she is my life and everything for me. My all happiness and joys are attached with her. Without her my life is colorless and like desert. Because I love her so much.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Do I Really Miss Her?

I have a story in here lamenting the loss 16 years ago of the woman I was sure I was destined to spend the rest of my life. Life doesn't always work out as planned And it seems the farther I get away from the day we separated, the less I think of her. Yet still, a few times a year I filled with most intense longing for her. It's as if I can feel her presence very near. I almost expect to see her around every street corner or hear from her when I answer the phone. God, I love her still after all this time. Yet do I really love her, or am simply in love with my memories of her? Are the emotions which ebb and flow a defense mechanism not only against my love challenged marriage, but the fact I have never been able to experience the love I had for her with anyone else? Where she is today, I hope she is happy. I also hope that from time to time to she pauses to remember me kindly. I am sure her and I will meet again after we pass from this world to the next. I am in no rush. But I know she was the love of my life, and I will never love anyone again the way that I love her.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

I Ended My Emotional Love Affair With My First Love

I have been having an emotional love affair, this summer, with my first love  after he called me, after 30 plus years We have only talked on the phone, but he brought back all the love I had locked inside me since we parted.  He and I were meant to be soul mates and it was hard to stop our reconnection even though I knew all along it was wrong. I just wanted to feel the love I had lost so many years ago, We both are married with grown children. Everyday I lived for the calls we shared, but sneaking around continued to make me feel bad, Selfishly wishing we could be out in the open about talking, knowing that wouldn't be possible for either of us. We never talked about love, but made references to some of our past sexual experiences. and the emotions we had shared in our youth. He just made me feel so young and alive.  Maybe it was the fact that it was a secret just between the two of us, that made it more exciting. I was getting in deeper and deeper, feeling more guilty, scared of getting caught, but still holding on to the feelings we had so many years ago.  it seemed like I was addicted, and just could not go on with out talking. Today when he called we stopped our emotional love affair. The guilt was too much, because I was celebrating my 36th anniversary with my husband. My first love was the one who asked if I wanted him not to call. My conscience got the best of me and I said it was probably the right thing to do, and he said he loved me and I said I loved him too. My heart was breaking, and crying for the loss of my first love. I text him back, 36 years and I will love you forever. save a place for me in your heart.  He text back. U are in my heart forever. Now I can't hold back the tears, and I fill so empty and sad. What was suppose to be a day of celebration for me, ended with me saying good by again to my soul mate. I really had a hard time trying to hold back the tears and to wear a happy face.. It is so difficult because I would love to be able to share with others my hurt, but I know what we had would be condemned by most, and so I must go on, trying to be strong, and carrying the love of my life locked away, and trying to make the best of the life I have made with my husband and family.  I know I will love and miss my first love forever.

She Still Doesn't Know

You met her a few months ago, and somehow she managed to seep into your subconscious mind like that “Sugar how you get so fly” song. Just like you have no clue who the hell sings it, you don’t know why she’s there. But she is, whether you like it or not. You know her cell phone, her room phone. You can dial her Aunt Doreen’s house in West Springfield (Where she goes to do her laundry every two weeks) faster than you can peck out 911. However, she doesn’t know.

Her screen name, that generic one with her first name followed by three to five random numbers or UMass, has its own category at the top of your buddy list. Not only do you know what a “Buddy Alert” is, you’ve rigged your computer to play “Fat Guy in a Little Coat” from “Tommy Boy” every time her screen name changes from gray to black. Then her away message comes down and you have a decision to make. To Instant Message or not to Instant Message her? These are the ridiculous games that you play on a daily basis. However, she doesn’t know.

She’s it. All right, maybe not “It” it. Not necessarily Ms. Right, but close to Ms. Right. She’s up there with - Anna Kournikova - and - Lizzie McGuire - on your list of - people you’d give anything to be stranded with on a broken down elevator. But it’s about more than that. When is it ever about more than that? Never. Not like frilly white dress, overpriced catering, embarrassing drunk in-laws. But closer to UMass sweatpants, two D.P. Dough Roni Zonies, a futon and a movie you have no interest in seeing more. However, she doesn’t know.

She’s gorgeous, but gorgeous is an understatement. More like you’re startled every time you see her because you notice something new in a “Where’s Waldo” sort of way. More like you can’t stop writing third grade run-on sentences because you can’t remotely begin to describe something… someone… so inherently amazing. But you’re a writer. You can describe anything. That’s what you do - pictures to words, events to words, words to even better words. But nothing seems right. More like you’re afraid that if you stare at her for too long, you’ll prove your parents right - that yes, your face will stick that way. However, you wouldn’t mind.

You wouldn’t mind the questioning but “Hello?” on the other end makes you want to smile and throw up at the same time. You wouldn’t mind worrying about what to get her for her birthday and spending $300 when you only have $17.50 and a Triple-A card to your name. You wouldn’t mind that she left your television on and the blaring infomercials wake you up at 4 a.m.… Because it gives you a chance to watch her sleep. You don’t mind that you’ve slipped up twice when you were hammered and hinted at how you feel but she was too drunk to remember. Hence, she doesn’t know.

Sure, she’s pretty, but it’s about more than that. You two connect. Anything you throw at her, she can throw right back. You figured out what’s going on in that predictable head of hers in less than five minutes, but something tells you that figuring out her heart would take about five years.

You remember everything she’s ever said to you, and when that freaks her out, you blame it on your photographic memory (Which is a lie, you have a 2.7 GPA). You can’t remember your teaching assistant’s name, and you can’t remember that your Puffton rent check was due four days ago, yet you remember the middle name of the kid who tripped her in fifth grade and gave her that cute little scar on her shoulder. Maybe it’s because you actually listen when she talks. When do you actually listen? Never. However, she doesn’t know.

But she has a boyfriend. The kid is a tool, and you are not. He has no redeeming qualities, and you have about 38, even when you’re hung over. You could kick his butt, and you’ve never been in a fight in your life. He treats her like crap, and you would treat her like the princess she believed herself to be on Halloween in 1988.

But she loves him. He wouldn’t know what he had even if she slapped him across the face and dumped him, but somehow she still loves him. And somehow she still doesn’t know.

Then, out of nowhere, she slaps him across the face and dumps him. She comes to you. You’ve been there before, so you seem like the smartest guy on earth. She cries, but your corny half-jokes, half-compliments somehow get a smile out of her that makes you feel almost ashamed that you’re the only one around who gets to witness it. It looks like you might make her realize that all guys don’t deserve to have rocks thrown at them.

But nothing changes. She doesn’t know. You get that library elevator feeling in your stomach that she’ll never know. You get that feeling that you’ll be forced to write a cheesy Collegian column about her that makes “Sleepless in Seattle” look like “Girls Gone Wild.”

You go to sleep. You wake up. She doesn’t know. You’re not in love. You’re not obsessed. You blame it on the fact that you just need to get some, but still, it’s about more than that. It would just be nice if once in your life, things worked out the way you wanted them to.

So _______________, it’s about time you know.

Now cut this out, fill in her name, and give it to her, coward. Just let me know how it works out.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Mom's Eye

My mom only had one eye. I hated her. She was such an embarrassment. She cooked for the students and teachers in school to support the family.

During elementary school, my mom came to say hello to me. I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me? I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.

The next day at school, one of my classmates said, "Eeeeeks, your mom only has one eye!"
I wanted to bury myself. I also wanted my mom to just disappear.
I confronted her that day and said, "Why don't you just die if you're only going to make me a laughing stock?"
My mom did not respond. I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said because I was full of anger. I was oblivious to her feelings.

I wanted to leave the house and severed all ties with her. Hence, I studied real hard and finally won a scholarship to study abroad.

I got married and bought a house of my own. I had kids and was happy with my life. However one day, my mother came to visit me. We had not seen each other in years. She also had not met her grandchildren before.
My children laughed at her when she stood by the door. I yelled at her for coming to my place uninvited.

I screamed at her, "How dare you come to my house and scare my children!"
“Get Out Of Here! Now!"

My mother quietly answered, "Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address."
She disappeared out of sight.

One day, I went back to my hometown for a school reunion. After the reunion, I went back to my old house out of curiosity. I found out from my neighbors that my mother had died.

I did not shed a single tear.

They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have. The content of the letter is as follows.

"My dearest son,

I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I went to your house uninvited and caused your children to be frightened.

I was so glad when I heard you were coming back for the school reunion. However, I may not even be able to get out of bed to see you.

I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up. However, there’s a good reason why I only have one eye.

When you were very little, you got into an accident and you lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't bear to watch you having to grow up with only one eye. Hence, I gave you mine. I am proud of my son who is able to see a whole new world for me in my place with that eye.

With all my love to you,
Your mother"

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Love and Madness

Long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it, God placed all the “human qualities" in a room.

Since all the qualities were bored, they decided to play hide and seek.
"Madness" was one of the qualities and he shouted, "I want to count, I want to count!"

And since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek "Madness", all the other qualities agreed.
Hence "Madness" leaned against a tree and started to count, "One, two, three..."
As "Madness" counted, the qualities went hiding. "Treason" hid in a pile of garbage.
"Lie" said that it would hide under a stone but hid at the bottom of the lake instead.
“Madness” continued counting, "...seventy-nine, eighty, eighty-one..."

By this time, all the qualities were well hidden except "Love". For stupid as "Love" is, he could not decide where to hide. This should not come as a surprise because we all know how difficult it is to hide "Love".

"Madness" counted faster as he approaches hundred, "...ninety-five, ninety-six, ninety-seven..."
When "Madness" got to one hundred, "Love" jumped into a rose bush where he hid.
“Madness” turned around and shouted, "I'm coming, I'm coming!"

As “Madness” started seeking, "Laziness" was the first to be found because "Laziness" was too lazy to hide. "Madness" searched madly and found "Lie" at the bottom of the lake. One by one, “Madness” found them all - except “Love”. “Madness” got desperate as he was unable to find “Love”.
Envious of “Love”, "Envy" whispered to "Madness", "“Love” is hiding in the rose bush."
"Madness" jumped into the rose bush and he heard a loud cry. The thorns in the bush had pierced "Love" eyes.

God heard the commotion and went into the room. He saw what happened and became very angry. He cursed "Madness" and said that since "Love" became blind because of “Madness”, “Madness” shall always be with “Love”.

As a result, from that day onwards, Love is blind and is always accompanied by Madness!

Monday, January 9, 2012

Let me Love You

There was a guy who was very much in love with this girl. The romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl. Although, at that time he was just a small executive in his company and his future doesn't seemed too bright, they were very happy together. However one day, his girl told him she is going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she cannot visualize any future for the both of them, so she wanted to go separate ways there and then... The guy was heartbroken but he agreed.

When he regained his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his mind and body just to make a name for himself. Finally with plenty of hardwork and the help of friends, he managed to set up his own company.

"You never fail until you stop trying." he always told himself.
"I must make it in life!"

One rainy day, while the guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn't take him long to realize those were his ex-girlfriend's parents. He delibrately drove slowly beside the couple,hoping they spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same anymore. He had his own company, car, condominium, etc. He had made it in life!

Before he realized it, the couple was entering a cemetary. He got out of his car and followed them. There, he saw his ex-girlfriend. A photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone. He saw his precious paper cranes placed in a bottle beside her tomb. Her parents saw him. He walked over and asked them how did this happen. They explained that she did not leave for France after all. She was ill stricken with cancer. In her heart, she believed that he will make it in life someday. However. she did not want her illness to be his obstacle. Therefore she chose to leave him.

She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her because if the day comes when fate brings him to her again, he can take some of them back with him. The guy wept miserably. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them but knowing you can't have them and will never see them again.

The End.

A tragic story that perhaps happens only in the movies. At the end of the day, money is money but love is divine. In our quest for our material wealth, take time to make time for our loved ones. There will be a time when we have only memories to cling to.

Take this weekend to show our "love" to all that are close to us.

Friday, January 6, 2012



Part 1

It was first day of the mid-year exams and therefore I finished school a little earlier. I called him,

“Hey, I finished school earlier today, would you come by and pick me up?”
“Alright, give me five minutes.”
“Five minutes? But my school is just beside your house.”
“I need to get ready.”
“Alright, make it fast then.”

It was 2 p.m. in the afternoon and the sun was extremely hot. I stood under a shaded tree and fanned myself. Although it doesn't make much of a difference, I felt better with something to do while I wait.

After five minutes, he still hadn’t shown up. I felt a little unhappy as I looked at my watch.

Soon, five minutes turned to ten minutes and he's still not here. Did he meet with an accident on his way here? I started to become worried.

It was fifteen minutes later when he finally showed up.

“Why are you so late?”
He wasn't even a little bothered.

“I was watching T.V.”
“What?! T.V.?! Why don't you sleep, bathe and eat before you get me then?”

I was extremely angry and kept quiet as I didn't take the helmet he handed me. I stood there and stared at him.


This was the first time he said sorry to me. He is an egoistical person and had never apologised to a girl before. I looked at him and felt my heart softened. I decided it is alright since he apologised. I took the helmet and let him sent me home.

It was typical of him to avoid explanations, friction and quarrels between us. Since then, the only thing he ever does is to apologise when something is wrong. However in my opinion, some things can't be settled with an apology.

Despite that, I would never pursue a matter once he apologises. He told me that was the first time he said sorry to a girl and while I felt that it takes courage to admit mistakes, he never once corrects his mistakes. Instead, I get the impression that sorry became a word to shut me up.

Tears flowed down my cheeks when he apologised to me again on the 59th time. I dropped my head and told him,

“Please don't bother to say sorry to me again. If you can never change your bad habits, don't let me keep giving you chances again and again, hoping and believing that you would change each time.”

He held me lightly and said the 60th sorry. Even with my outburst and his latest apology, he did not change for the better and there still wasn’t any explanation on his mistakes whatsoever.


Part 2

I started to worry about the possibility that he was keeping something from me.

“What's wrong with you these few days?”
“Then why are you acting so strange?”
“I am not.”
“What can you say other than giving this reply?”
“Do you know I'm very worried and very insecure?”
“Do you treat me as your girlfriend?”
“I'm sorry...”
“I don't want to hear you say sorry again.”

I clamed the phone down and he did not call me back. At that point of time, I felt that he didn't even care about me. Maybe we should just break up.

That was the 99th time he said sorry to me.

From that day onwards, I stopped calling and looking for him.

Sometimes, I would get an anonymous phone call. However every time I said hello, the phone will be cut off. I think he made those calls but I wondered why he didn’t speak up.

After a month, I couldn't contain the feelings I still have for him anymore and went to his school to look for him. I went to his classroom and looked around, but there was no sign of him.

“Excuse me, is XOXO here today?”
“I'm afraid he stopped schooling.”
“Huh? Why? When was that?”
“He hasn't been in school for a month already.”
“Oh erm... Thanks.”

One month? He hasn’t been in school for one month. Why is that so? I stumbled home in confusion.

As soon as I got home I tried to contact him via his cell phone but all I got was, “Sorry the caller is currently unavailable, please leave your message after the tone. Beep.”

I tried calling his house instead but there was no answer. How can it be? Did his whole family migrate? It seemed as if he has disappeared off the face of the earth without leaving a single trace.
I couldn't find him and just as I was feeling distraught, my friend rang me up. He was one of his brothers and also my good friend.

“Hey, what have you been doing? XOXO is in hospital.”
“Really? What Happened?”
“Oh he is in ZZ hospital, the one you stayed in previously.”
“I'll be right there.”

I rushed off and when I reached the hospital, I saw that his parents were already there. I asked them for his room number and flew across the hall. He was lying on a bed looking at me. He didn’t speak a word nor moved a muscle.


Part 3

“Hey, what happened to you? Why didn't you contact me?”
He did not answer but stared emotionlessly at me.
“Come on answer me. Why don't you speak?”
A tear flowed down the side of his eye, and it looked as though he was summoning all his energy to mumble these words...
“I'm... Sorry...”
He shut his eyes after that.
“Hey, don't fool around alright. Why say sorry to me?”
“Don't say sorry to me. Please wake up. Please answer me…”

I fell down on the side of his bed and wept miserably. I pulled his shirt as I cried out...
“Why do you have to apologise? Why don't you give me an explanation instead?”
“I won't forgive you. Wake up! It is no use saying sorry...”
“I'll never ever forgive you in this lifetime if you don’t wake up. Please, I beg you to open your eyes.....”

That was the 100th sorry. A group of medical staff, doctors and nurses pulled me away and tried to revive him. I didn’t even have the strength to stand up. My mind was a blank.... My eyes could only see a sea of darkness...

He did not leave this world. I merely lost the chance to touch him. Sometimes, he will appear in my dreams and tell me how he is doing. He is still alive and accompanies me in my heart. He will still laugh at my silliness and call me his darling. It’s just that he will never apologise to me anymore.

After a month, his mom came to look for me and gave me a box. There were a hundred photographs inside. Everyone had a story behind them. It was the reason why he made me angry.

My dear, the first time I said sorry I did not purposely arrive late to pick you up. I know this excuse is really lame but I didn't have the heart to tell you the truth then. Before I stepped out of the house, I felt a pain in my chest but I still made it a point to meet you. Can you please forgive me?

My dear, the second time I said sorry I...

My dear, the third time I said sorry I...

My dear, the hundredth time I said sorry I didn't mean to leave you alone in this world. It had to be so because God did not give me the chance to say I Love You for this lifetime of mine and to put a ring on your finger...

You are the first girl I apologised to and also the first girl I want to be with for the rest of my life. Forgive me for not being able to bring you happiness but I will become your angel and always look out for you. I will look at you while you find your happiness. Please promise me not to shed a tear. I don't want to see you weep for me.

I Love You

How can I not cry? What you wanted was just impossible.

The last photograph showed him in the hospital. Although he was skinny, the smile on his face was as bright as ever. His face was pale and yet he tried his best to give his last smile on the last photo, the photo for the 100th apology.

At the time when he needed me the most, I wasn't with him. I'm sorry. I held the photo tightly and cried for us.
So to all guys out there, Always explain to your girlfriend…
And to the girls, Always be understanding towards your boyfriend...

Chain of Love


Part 1

He was driving home one evening on a two-lane country road. Work in this small Midwestern community was almost as slow as his beat-up Pontiac. But he never quit looking. Ever since the factory closed, he'd been unemployed, and with winter raging on, the chill had finally hit home.

It was a lonely road. Not very many people had a reason to be on it, unless they were leaving. Most of his friends had already left. They had families to feed and dreams to fulfill. But he stayed on. After all, this was where he buried his mother and father. He was born here and knew the country. He could go down this road blind and tell you what was on either side, and with his headlights not working, that came in handy.

It was starting to get dark and light snow flurries were coming down. He'd better get a move on. He almost didn't see the old lady stranded on the side of the road. But even in the dim light of day, he could see she needed help. So he pulled up in front of her Mercedes and got out. His Pontiac was still sputtering when he approached her. Even with the smile on his face, she was worried. No one had stopped to help for the last hour or so. Was he going to hurt her? He didn't look safe, he looked poor and hungry.

He could see that she was frightened, standing out there in the cold. He knew how she felt. It was that chill which only fear can put in you.
He said, "I'm here to help you ma'am. Why don't you wait in the car where it's warm? By the way, my name is Bryan."

Well, all she had was a flat tire but for an old lady, that was bad enough. Bryan crawled under the car looking for a place to put the jack, skinning his knuckles a time or two. Soon he was able to change the tire. But he had to get dirty and his hands hurt. As he was tightening up the lug nuts, she rolled down the window and began to talk to him. She told him that she was from St. Louis and was only just passing through. She couldn't thank him enough for coming to her aid. Bryan just smiled as he closed her trunk.

She asked him how much she owed him. Any amount would have been all right with her. She had already imagined all the awful things that could have happened had he not stopped. Bryan never thought twice about the money. This was not a job to him. This was helping someone in need, and God knows there were plenty who had given him a hand in the past. He had lived his whole life that way and it never occurred to him to act any other way.

Part 2

He told her that if she really wanted to pay him back, the next time she saw someone who needed help, she could give that person the assistance that they needed and Bryan added "...and think of me."

He waited until she started her car and drove off. It had been a cold and depressing day, but he felt good as he headed for home, disappearing into the twilight. A few miles down the road the lady saw a small cafe. She went in to grab a bite to eat and take the chill off before she made the last leg of her trip home. It was a dingy looking restaurant.

Outside were two old gas pumps. The whole scene was unfamiliar to her. The cash register was like the telephone of an out of work actor. It didn't ring much. Her waitress came over and brought a clean towel to wipe her wet hair. She had a sweet smile, one that even being on her feet for the whole day couldn't erase. The lady noticed that the waitress was nearly eight months pregnant, but she never let the strain and aches change her attitude. The old lady wondered how someone who had so little could be so giving to a stranger. Then she remembered Bryan.

After the lady finished her meal and the waitress went to get change for her hundred dollar bill, the lady slipped right out the door. She was gone by the time the waitress came back. She wondered where the lady could be, and then she noticed something written on a napkin. There were tears in her eyes when she read what the lady wrote. It said:

"You don't owe me anything, I have been there too. Somebody once helped ME out the way I'm helping you. If you really want to pay me back, here is what you do: Do not let this chain of love end with you."

Well, there were tables to clear, sugar bowls to fill, and people to serve, but the waitress made it through another day. That night when she got home from work and climbed into bed, she was thinking about the money and what the lady had written. How could the lady have known how much she and her husband needed it? With the baby due next month, it was going to be hard. She knew how worried her husband was and as he lay sleeping next to her, she gave him a soft kiss and whispered soft and low,
"Everything's going to be all right, I love you, Bryan."

Please note that this story is an expanded version of the song Chain Of Love by Clay Walker. All rights for this story belong to its respective owners and Love Fate Destiny does not owe any rights to this story.